elusive
hard to capture or achieve
frustration
feelings of anger and helplessness brought on by an inability to accomplish a goal
instinct
natural, rather than learned, feeling or ability
conditions
the existing circumstances
barren
devoid of life; empty
harsh
severe, painful; rough
decrepit
worn out and feeble
arose
came into being; appeared
vertical
upright, or up and down; on a map, north and south
lurched
moved in an unexpected, sudden way